This was my view from my 'room' last night.

I went to my Aunt's surprise party, and as usual, my cousins and the like, had to pry into my personal life because they just can't believe I'm not dating anyone. I even had my one cousin tell me he thought I was being too picky and should stop being that way.

My aunt's sister also has a problem with me being single, and this time that she saw me she seemed determined to figure out the real reason I'm not dating anyone. She began with her series of questions...and I know she means well...but what bugged me the most was when she told me about her friend that got divorced and never met anyone after that...stayed single the rest of her life. I thought to myself, maybe she wanted it that way.. I also thought to myself... I hope that's not what God has planned for me!

After all the 'questioning' over the weekend, not to mention my brother's friend asking me out and me having to give him a 'kind' reason why I wouldn't go out with him, when it 'appears' I have nothing better to do!

But they just don't know, they don't understand...I'm in love with someone who is not available to me right now... but that doesn't turn off my feelings for him, you know.

Then after all that crap this week, I go out with my other brother daryl last night, and he introduces me to his new girlfriend..[i'm happy for him].. but his new girlfriend kept trying to get me to leave with them, she said she felt bad leaving me there.. like that was so terrible. I was watching the Indians game, I can sit there and finish my drink before going home to watch the sunset can't I? It's like she felt sorry for me.. what the hell for???

But the icing on the cake, was after they left and I was checking out, and this random guy came up to me and said, "You are too beautiful to be sitting here by yourself!" Then he dissappeared like some phantom ghost.

I don't know how you would feel [but let me know], but I couldn't take it anymore!!! Was the world trying to tell me something, or was my love being tested?

One of the things I love about me is how strong and passionate I can love! I believe perhaps the strength of my love overwelms people. But my love is genuine and true and exists for one person.

Is that so wrong?

I couldn't make out if it was karma or coincidence,

so I left!

alone..to view this sunset!

God couldn't have provided me with such an awesome sunset blessing last night. I really needed it too. I didn't care like last year that no one was there to share the experience with me, I actually felt a bit honored to have it all to myself!

I had the sunset to poor my love into..
Just me and my personal sunset God sent me!

Date of Birth:
August 26, 1910
Date of Death:
September 5, 1997

Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.

Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat.

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired.

Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person.

Each one of them is Jesus in disguise.

Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing.

God doesn't require us to succeed; he only requires that you try.

Good works are links that form a chain of love.

I am a little pencil in the hand of a writing God who is sending a love letter to the world.

I do not pray for success, I ask for faithfulness.

I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.

I try to give to the poor people for love what the rich could get for money. No, I wouldn't touch a leper for a thousand pounds; yet I willingly cure him for the love of God.

I want you to be concerned about your next door neighbor. Do you know your next door neighbor?

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.

If we want a love message to be heard, it has got to be sent out. To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it.

If you can't feed a hundred people, then feed just one.
It is impossible to walk rapidly and be unhappy.


It is not the magnitude of our actions but the amount of love that is put into them that matters.

Jesus said love one another. He didn't say love the whole world.

Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.

Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.

Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love.

Let us more and more insist on raising funds of love, of kindness, of understanding, of peace. Money will come if we seek first the Kingdom of God - the rest will be given.

Let us touch the dying, the poor, the lonely and the unwanted according to the graces we have received and let us not be ashamed or slow to do the humble work.

Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty.

Love begins at home, and it is not how much we do... but how much love we put in that action.

Love begins by taking care of the closest ones - the ones at home.

Father's day is approaching, and as usual, I barely want to call you to say hello, let alone have to actually visit you.

You see my father is a real winner. The most selfish person you would ever want to meet. He only does what HE wants to do, always. He never takes into consideration anyone else's feelings.

If you 'call' him on his actions, he tries to convince you things aren't that way at all. He's very good at lying, almost to the point where you actually start to feel sorry for him.

My mother would bring him complaints, all he wanted to know was what it was, so he could spend all his time focusing on how he would EXPLAIN his way out of it, not actually DOING anything about it at all... he was good at convincing you, that you weren't seeing what you were really seeing...because then he would look like an ass.. and he left you feeling like the ass.

I guess this is why I am so good at recognizing people like him. It amazes me how many people are stuck in relationships that are completely abusive, completely destroying their very being, and they aren't even getting 'hit/beat/puched' physically at all.. no, this type of character, [my dad and the like], are so good at their manipulation and spewing their venom verbage, you feel as though you've caused the whole thing!!!

It becomes very obvious that they don't love you, certainly not to the degree as they care about themselves! They love themselves so very very much, that they go to great lengths to get what they want, destroying anyone and anything in their way... including you!

So since this is Father's day Sunday dad, and this day is made all about YOU, and since you took advantage all year, making it all about you, I'll make this Sunday, all about me. That's 365 days to 1 day. I think I deserve that won't you agree?

{I apologize to all those who have lost their dad's out their who may be thinking I should appreciate having him around...I didn't mean to offend you... but I only see my shoes on my feet---and my feet hurt}

I know you are hurting
I know you're in pain
Please don't forget that I am here
To stop you from going insane

I am standing by you, as close as you'll let me come
over there or over here
it doesn't matter
my heart always holds you near

I understand why you hurt so much
I can offer you my gentle touch
Caress you, hold you, free your pain
Oh how you are loved so much~

I don't know how else to ease your sorrow
All I have is today and tomorrow

Just please know, my arms are wide opened
Whatever you need, whatever you want
My love, my prayers, my understanding, my support
You have it all
Always

Silence has a heart of gold

Though it would never be told

Should we speak only when spoken to

Or unleash our mind of its subdue

Take heed, you never know

Where silence is meant to go

It creeps and seeks

Peeps and beeps

Sometimes it even deceits

But truly, silence, remains

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